I know what’s life…

I know what its like … Before you delete, pass on reading or unsubscribe, allow me be transparent and share with you today. I know what it’s like to feel like I’m on top of the world; I know what it’s like to feel like the world around me is coming to an end. I know what it’s like to have plenty in my bank account; I know what it’s like to go to the bank to find out my account has been frozen. I know what it’s like to have a nice car; I know what it’s like to have people come repossess it. I know what it’s like to have a refrigerator full of food; I know what it’s like to have to go to social services for groceries. I know what it’s like to feel healthy, be in good shape and I know what it’s like to spend days in a hospital with a serious illness. I know what it’s like to be happily married; I know what it’s like to experience a bitter divorce. I know what it’s like to plant a church; I know what it’s like to lose it. I know what it’s like to have many “friends”; I know what it’s like to see everyone disappear when times got tough. I know what it’s like to be surrounded by so many; I know what it’s like to still feel like you’re alone. I know what it’s like to be genuinely happy and I know what it’s like to attempt to end my life.  I know what it’s like to see God answer my prayers and I know what it’s like to not have a prayer answered. 

We are quick to talk about the good things, the easy things, the things that matter least, but when it’s time to talk about our fears, our loneliness, our guilt or our struggles we let it sit and simmer until it negatively affects and hurts us and we in turn hurt others. You run and hide because you don’t know how to respond, you don’t know how people will react, you’re afraid of what the results may be. We bottle up our stuff and we silence our voices, our anointing, our calling as a result of the mess. 

But for how long? How long are you going to hide behind the mask and deny your unmet needs and fears? King David wasn’t afraid to admit his fears, his weakness or sadness! Psalms 30:2 “O’ Lord my God, I cried to You, and You healed me.”

I wanted to tell you today, I know what it’s like … But God also knows what it’s like for you, His child to feel helpless and at the end of your rope. Today I encourage you as you read this, that it’s ok if you want to take a moment and cry, shout and scream. Just know today, that God knows and He wants to remind you that He has not left or forsaken you. He knows what it’s like, He knows, just hold on a bit longer and watch Him do what He does best!